Autobiography of the Face

Boo-Yaaah Bitches!!!!!!!

2005-04-05T17:08:43Z

Yeah, yeah!!! Orlando baby, May 23-June 1, 2005. Me and Mickey gonna be pimpin dem beeeeoottccheess!!!!!!!

It's all over at 2am

2005-02-19T07:42:12Z

Sure, we had our problems, but don’t all couples?
All couples have problems specific to their character traits and dynamic make up. Ours were slightly different from my prior relationships. There seem to be “themes” to the fights we’ve experienced in the past. Certain things that are common to fights, a catalyst, if you will. With you, we defied every common law that births an argument between lovers.

Before you, I was about 25% of what I had the potential to be. After you found me, I was everything I wanted to be. There is a crass distinction but I will not go into that because the differences are among personal definition.

I had a clarity which I had never seen. I could see what made us fight, I could see our weakness, I could see our strength. I knew how our fights started, and more importantly, I knew how they could be stopped.

Our ability to make up was extraordinary! And I suppose it’s what kept us together. For me, it was something akin to broken record, which isn’t bad. It was a beautiful thing in our case, I found a new level of trust and openness.

Long before her and I ever started dating, we were just friends. We hung out, went to the bar, watched movies. I cried on her shoulder, her mine. I watched her date a string of guys, with the end result never working out. She could call me up and tell me how it ended. A lot of times I wouldn’t hear from her during these dating periods, she would about two weeks without calling me, then one day I would get a phone call. I already knew what she was gonna say. And things would go back to normal between us.

I developed this big brother mentality toward her. I wanted to protect her from all the bad things stemming from her failed dating. I knew what she wanted, she had such a simple heart. She just wanted to be loved. Nothing more, I could see that, I always have.

Time went on, we got closer, we spent more time together. I’ve never had any real friends, she became my one and only true friend. She occupied more and more of my life, to the point she became a prominent figure.

Eventually we started dating. My best friend, now my girlfriend. Well, like all couples, we fought. But our fights were something different from what I was used to. They didn’t end us.

We had some real bad fights, ending in shattered glass, tears, and vomit. It was ugly sometimes. But the beautiful thing came after we would break up. Either that same day or the next I would have to call her. I couldn’t stay gone. I watched her cry because of the pain men had put her through, this time I was the guy giving her the grief. And that’s when the friend kicked back in. After she was in tears, I felt compelled to console her, because underneath the boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, she was still my best friend. For me, it was first. It was weird to hold her and tell her things are going to be ok after we just broke up. Usually the girl tells me to leave, or they say don’t touch me. She didn’t do that, she let be her best friend right after I just got done hurting her. It was odd to be the ass that hurt her and be the man to pick up the pieces.

After we broke up, we would end up right back together due to the fact she was still my best friend, but we had amorous feelings toward each other. So it wasn’t long before I was in her bed all over again. It felt good to be in her loving arms. She knew exactly how to make me feel like a man, everything and I don't just mean sexually. She is amazing.

Everone knows that make-up sex is the best sex in the world, well next to congical visit sex that is. When we were together it seemed like everything else stopped, time did not exist. When we made love everything just seem to fit. I mean, our parts, like a jigsaw puzzle, just matched up perfectly. I loved being in her arms, her soft smooth body and warm embrace made me feel safe. I mean this with all my heart, when she held me I truly felt that I could die and everything would be ok.

It was beautiful, and for a long time it worked. Toward the end she monopolized most of my life, more so then she probably realized. She put the color in my life, now that she is gone everything is gray, the majesty of life has seemed to disappear.

Girlfriend, best friend, ex girlfriend, rebound girlfriend, lover, personal love slave, bed buddy, cuddle buddy. She xerved a number of roles, existing on several levels.

Yeah, I can say it, I needed her. I still do, as I write this I find extremly hard to breath. She was my emotional whubby (security blanket, if you will). Girlfriend is too constricting of a word to apply to her. In the end, I think she helped me out, more then I her. Perhaps I never said thanks for that.

So, Thanks.

She was really something. Someone once said, "You're only allowed three great women in your life." Then he said "I had all three of mine when I was sixteen. What can ya do?" Well, what to do you do when a girl that you've loved ends up being all three in one shot? The problem with having with a relationship like that, is I got so used to having it, it’s hard to adjust having without. I suppose it’s dangerous to have someone play so many roles. You remove one person, you’re really removing thirty. So I sit wondering, what next?

I mean I know things will eventually go back to normal and I will be my normal self but until then, what? I mean I'm in that stage where I don't even want to shower, eat, talk to anyone, or go to school. She is gone and that is ok. I am a better person after having had her in my life than I ever would have been if our paths woudl have never crossed. I'm going to fel this one for a lon, long time. Everything I do reminds me of her, my cereal, my toothpaste, TV shows, commercials. Every where I look she is there, I love her, miss her, and would do anything to her my phone ring or hear a knock on my door. But you see, things like that only happen in the movies.

Well I just want to say that all that I am I owe to you. I'll miss the way you would cover your beautiful smile. I'll miss the way you would kiss my neck right behind my ear lobe. I'll miss watching you sleep. I'll miss hearing you sing in the shower. I'll miss the way you would look at me, like you had a secret you were dying to tell me. I'll miss eskimo and butterfly. I'll miss you. Beautiful, simple, you.

So hear I sit aching to hear her whisper into my ear "This years lovin' better last. Heaven knows it's high time." Does heaven really know? Always remeber, "Where you are is where I belong. Where you go, I do know, that's where I wanna be."

Something I've realized

2005-01-14T05:42:31Z

I've realized today that I have a very unhealthy crush on Scarlett Johansson. I look at her and I can't help but fantasize about her. I mean I am so attracted to her I can't help myself. Every time I see her I want to kiss her. I look at her and I am like "Damn I would love to het to know her."

I don't know exactly what it is but I think I figured out part of it. Here is my tale:

You see it starts a long time ago, in a town far far away. My sister used to work at a daycare and she had a number of girl friends that she worked with. Out of all the girls she worked with only one of them ever caught my eye. She was, and still is, the most beautiful creatures in the wide world. Her smile was as bright as the clear blue sky. She would come to pick up my nephew and I would get all dolled up for her arrival because I could not let her see me in anything other than my good clothes. Haha...I remember faking trips to my sister's job just so that I could see her. I had always been considered a smooth talker but when I would get in front of her I would lose it. Ya know what I mean? Where you just try so hard to keep it together and the harder you try to be composed the further away your composure slips from you. I had never experienced a feeling like that before. I mean I had been in love before but those feeling were not even close to how I felt when I saw this girl.

So one day my sister comes home from work one day and tells me that this girls thinks I'm hot. HOLY SHIT!!!! Me, Joe Ribeiro, hot! Let me explain. You see, I am by no means hot. I am the kind of guy that when a girl looks at me she says "Umm, he's cute." I am the boy who gets cuter the more you get to know me. As I used to say to my boyz "It's my personality that makes'em wet." Girls like this one don't give me a second glance, so when I heard that I cried, I couldn't help it. My whole life I was never a gorgeous, beautiful person. I always saw myself as not ugly, but not handsome, not "good looking." So when my sister told me what this girl said I couldn't bear it, I just felt so good.

So I decided to get this girls number and try to talk to her. We would talk about movies, music (she has impeccable taste in music), and Al Pacino. we would talk about family, school, and what we wanted to do with out lives. I would love to sit on the other end of the phone and just listen to her talk. She was so full of life, so full humanity, truth, and beauty. In that short time I'm sure I fell in love with her. I am positive of it.

We went out once, at like two o'clock in the morning. I remember holding hands, laughing, driving to some party that her cousin was at. We probably hung out for about an hour or two tops, but for the first time in my pathetic life, I was the man. I was the man with the girl that everyone wants. I was the man with the girl on the beach that turns everyones head. For those two hours she was mine, and I just soaked her in. She dropped me off at my house and we kissed. It took my breath away. Her lips were so smooth and soft, and her hand went up around the back of my neck and rested on the back of my head. The kiss was brief, but the effect of that moment, the effect she had on me will last a life time.

After that we didn't really talk much. We just kinda lost touch, she did her thing and I did mine. Why did I do mine. I should have made a better effort to do her thing, but I didn't. She then moved away to a warm sunny state where they love orange juice and I remained in the state where empires were built. She is happy now and I am happy now, but every once ina while I sit and think of her, and what she means to me. You see I LOVE HEr. No, not that..."I love ya" or "Luv ya" kind of love. I LOVE HER and part of me always will.

Now back to my main point. Why I love Scarlett Johansson. Well it's because this girl I mentioned looks just like her. Scarlett Johansson reminds me of this girls so much its crazy. Well to both of my ladies, I LOVE YOU and I hope to see you both in my dreams.

Dyn-O-Mite

2005-01-09T00:54:16Z

Please, who ever you are, what ever you are doing, stop it right now and do your self a favor. Go see Napolean Dynomite!!! Now. No not later, not when you get around to it...right this minute. You will piss your flippin pants!!!!!!!!!!!!

Top 25 list

2004-11-16T17:56:01Z

25. I want to have a villa in Tuscany.

24. I almost died when I crashed my car in 2000...I spent 3 weeks in the hospital

23. My family and friends are the two most important things in my life

22. I once got caught sneaking out of my girlfriends house at 3AM (A neighbor called the cops)

21. My friends and I tried to sneak into Nathaniel Whites house (Does anyone remember him?)

20. I have an unhealthy addiction to Dave Matthews...I think I love him *sigh*

19. I have never cheated on a girlfriend...ever!!

18. I have had sex in a public place (In the bathroom in JCPennys in Middletown NY among others)

17. My favorite president is JFK

16. Honestly and truly my dad is my hero

15. My mother was a addicted to drugs while she was pregnant with me

14. I wanted to be a baseball player since I was 3 years old

13. When I knew that wouldn't happen, I wanted to be a nurse, just like my dad

12. I have a semester to go before I get my masters degree in education.

11. I tried being a vegeterian for like 7 seconds

10. I have experimented with many types of drugs

9. I was 12 the first time I frenched kissed a girl

8. The most stitches that I have received at one time was 95 (in my left leg)

7. Wondering about number 8...well...I got impaled on a metal fence (I didn't really, but thats my story
and I am sticking to it)

6. I have dislocated both my pinkies a total of 15 times

5. I have never broken any bones.

4. The first time I skipped school was a study hall my Jr year of high school (I was petro)

3. I went to Catholic school until I was in the 7th grade (St Francis de Chantel)

2. I have 7 sisters and 2 brothers...that's right, we roll deep son!!

1. I was born Septemeber 12th 1975 in Brooklyn NY

Thank You!!!!

2004-11-11T18:11:15Z

Today is Veterans Day and I just want to thank all of those soliders that have fought and died to keep us free, and who have fought to defend freedom acroos the globe. We, as Americans, are truely in debt to all of you, both the known and the unknown soilders. They lay their lives on the line for 200 million they don't even know, that means you and me, our families, and millions of others. So today I say thank you all from the very bottom of my heart. I ask that if any of you see a man in military uniform today...whether you support the war in Iraq or not...please just take a moment to go over to them, shake their hand, and say "Thank you."

jimmie_thing @ 2004-11-10T22:44:00

2004-11-11T03:47:09Z

Please check this out. It is really beautiful!! Don't let the name fool you!

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com/windowmovie.html

4 More Years!!!!

2004-11-03T16:57:39Z

Well it's over. Sen John Kerry was a very strong opponent for President Bush. But, a las, a loser nonetheless. This election was a land slide victory for the Republican party. The Republicans picked up 3 seats in the Senate padding their lead in that house of congress. They will maintain the lead in the House and of course control the Presidency. Talk about a mandate from the people, Bush received the most votes in the history of the United States and the first majority vote for a president in 12 years, since Bush I. What a great night for the Republicans. That being said, I think it is time to come together as people, as a nation and move forward toward a bright and prosperous future. It was an amazing race and a great voter turnout, it just proves that we, as americans, are motivated and do care about our country. Its time to put the election behind us and put our wonderful minds together, whether we are democrats or republicans and work together for our country and for our people.

This is why the UN didn't want the US to go into Iraq....

2004-10-07T18:43:59Z

Read this and you might have some insight as to why the UN didn't want the US to go into Iraq

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&cid=519&ncid=519&e=6&u=/ap/20041007/ap_on_re_us/oil_for_food_investigation

This poem is Cool.....

2004-10-02T05:28:16Z

Cool…..

Rick Schroeder and his black leather pants are not cool
George W Bush speaking in Spanish is not cool
All of this reality TV shit is not cool
Cell phones that ring your favorite NSYNC pop song are not cool
J LO and Marc are not cool
Parking Enforcement officers are not cool
Calling a burrito a wrap is not cool
Calling a woman a bitch is not cool
Forwarding emails that say “Please forward this to 10 of your friends or bad things will happen to you” is not cool.
Leaving a message on someone’s cell phone and giving the number really fast is not cool
Women who go out in tiny tube tops and tiny skirts then complain about being cold all night are not cool
Americas leaders manufacturing fabrications is not cool

Walking in Central Park during a sun shower is cool
Quiet, vibrating cell phones are cool
Telling our children how special they are and how much we love them is cool
Treating our women like the goddess they are is cool
The United Farmers relentless pursuit of Justice is cool
KRS-One’s Criminal Minded is cool
Walking with a woman and not in front of her is cool
Any John Melloncamp CD is cool, hey that’s my thing, if you don’t know now you know
Dawn Penn's classic reggae track “You don’t love me” is cool
Chivalry is cool
A father walking with his son in the park is cool and beautiful
Cute chick is ugly cars are............................Cool
Living your life by Russo’s philosophy that “All men are inherently good” is cool
Treating all people as you wish to be treated is cool
Giving your life the respect that it deserves is the coolest of them all.

Peace and Love

I AM FROM MOMENTS....

2004-09-23T15:41:21Z

I AM FROM MOMENTS…

I am from the Ribeiro Clan.
That’s right all 10 of us, well 12, if you count Mom & Dad.
The strict and loving guidance of Joe & Margaret.

I am from ‘Because I said so,’ ‘I’ll black and blue your ass,’
‘You can be anything you want to be son,’ ‘Always keep God first in
your life,’ and ‘I luh you, you luh me.’

I am from Brooklyn NY and block parties on the 4th of July
roof climbing, cheese fries, and running from Crazy Sal.
Stickball in the street, home base car bumpers,
dust storm baseball fields, and hiding under cars.

I am from concrete stoops, handball in the driveway,
and the Good Humor ice cream man.
GI Joes, Transformers and Thundercats “HO!”
That’s right I had an awesome childhood.

I am from food stamps.
Gov’t cheese, fish sticks, and Macaroni & Cheese.
Hand me downs, like, feety pajamas with the feety part
cut off so they would fit right.

I am from hanging up Christmas decorations.
The smells of Calamari, Scungelli, and Muscles filling
the kitchen like a balloon that was about to burst.
Hot wheels, etch-a-sketch, and operation.

I am from loss.
Grandpa and his “Education, education, education’ speech.
May you rest in peace forever.

I am from life through the glowing faces of my nieces and nephews.
Alexis, Arielle, Amanda, and Ryen.
James, William, Donovan, Aiden, and Jaiden.

I am from swing sets that squeak so loud it sounded like a million
cats dying. Green grass, backyards, swimming pools, cookouts.
Firing ranges, fishing trips, and bow & arrows.

In my minds eye I see these moments, moments that are frozen, like a storyboard of my life.
Sayings that are passed on, and kisses that last forever.
A lifetime of growing up inside the lines of a poem.
This poem is where I am from.

Finally....maybe

2004-08-27T21:27:45Z

I truly believe that the best saying I have ever heard is, with out the sour...the sweet wouldn't be as sweet. I have always been the type of guy who is shy. Kind of reserved and not very outgoing. I've never had much luck with love and relationships. I've always said that I'm the kind of guy that gets cuter the longer you hang out with me. I've never been known to attract "the billboard" type chick. That has all seemed to have changed this summer. Since the start of May I have been talking to this girl named Elaina. I met her at UB (University of Buffalo) in the Law Library. I remeber the first day that I saw her walk by...She had on a grey pants suit with with a white button down shirt under it. Ya know the collare was folded over top of the jacket. Her hair was long and brown with blond highglites. Her eyes were the most beautiful shade of green I have ever seen. The english language falls short in words to describe her beauty. The library was crowded that day and it seemed like she and I were the only ones there. She looked at me and did a double take...to this day I still don't know why. And then she smiled...the most beautiful smile in the wide world. My spirit danced, I felt alive. Ya know that feeling....that new love, young kid feeling. So since that day her and I have talked and gotten close, but last night was the best night of my pathetic little life. We went out to eat it was nice and then we went back to her place. As she opened the door I noticed a trail of rose petals that led to her bedroom. She softly took my hand and led me the room where she had a white nylon net hanging from the ceiling covering her bed. The rose petals were all around the bed and on top of it. She had what seemed to be 50 candles lit all around the room. She undressed me and then her self. She massaged my entire body with her soft but firm hands. The heat from her body was so intense. She kissed me. She kissed me. She kissed me. The moon was bright and was coming throught the blinds and the msuic playing in the back ground set the perfect mood. We made the best love I have every had in my sorry little life. In one moment she gave me life. In one moment she gave color to a life that saw everything in gray. In one moment she gave the one thing that I always hoped for but never thought I would get. As we layed there and she had her head on my chest. She dedicated this song to me....with her head on my chest she whispered the words to this song in my ear and at that moment I felt it:

This Years Love [White Ladder]

David Gray

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cause it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last

So who's to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last.

Thank you baby. Thank you for saving me.

Just a random entry

2004-08-14T00:02:23Z

Who am I? Why am I here? What is my purpose in life. I often ask myslef these questions and never have a good answer to any of them. I hate the fact that I am 28 years old and still in school. I hate the fact that I am short. I hate the fact that women are attracted to my "personality" and not my looks. You know what I mean, I am the kind of person that the more you hang out with me the cuter I get, I guess. I hate the fact that I am afraid of highets. I hate the fact that my father is dying. I hate the fact that my sister is in Afghanistan fighting a war. I hate the fact that if I died tomorrow I would have never made a difference. I hate the fact that my younger brother looks better than I do. I hate the fact that happiness seems to be two steps ahead of me. I hate the fact that when I visited my grandfather in the hospital the day before he died he was asleep...and I never woke him up. I hate the fact that when I was in high school I was shy. I hate the fact that I feel the way I do right now. I hate the fact that all my friends have their "careers" and I dont. I hate the fact that no matter how hard or long I work out, I never see any resluts. I hate the fact that will always be me. I hate the fact that I waited so long to get out of Middletown. I hate the fact that I know I have no one to blame for any of my rants. I hate the fact that I sometimes have a problem with my staying power (you know what I mean). I hate the fact that it takes such a long time for something good to come along and an instant to destroy it. Well I guess that's it for now

Have you ever

2004-07-01T00:38:07Z

Have you ever heard a song that just instantly takes you back to a time in your life where things couldn't get any better? I had that experience today and I have to thank DMB for that. This song is just an amazing song. I dedicated this song to a women that I was very fond of at a certain time in my life. She's one of those women that you wish hadn't got away. And this song was kinda "our song" for that brief period of time. I don't regret that she is gone from my life but "Oh what could've been." It truly was the best time in my life. If you've never listened to this song PLEASE DO SO!!!! It might have the same effect on you that it has on me.

I'll back you up

Lyrics By: David J Matthews
Performed By: Dave MAtthews Band

I remember thinking
I'll go on forever only knowing
I'll see you again
But I know
The touch of you is so hard to remember
But like that touch I know no other

And for sure we have danced
In the risk of each other
Would you like to dance
Around the world with me

I'll be falling all about my own thing
And I know you're the heaviest weight
When you're not here that's hung
Around my head

And your lips burn wild
Thrown from the face of a child
And in your eyes
The seeing of the greatest few
Do what you will, always
Walk where you like, your steps
Do as you please, I'll back you up

I remember thinking
Sometimes we walk
Sometimes we run away
But I know
No matter how fast we are running
Somehow we keep
Somehow we keep up with each other

I'll be falling all about my own thing
And I know you're the heaviest weight
When you're not here that's hung
Around my head

And your lips burn wild
Thrown from the face of a child
And in your eyes
The seeing of the greatest few
Do what you will, always
Walk where you like, your steps
Do as you please, I'll back you up

My Evening Commute

2004-05-13T03:38:33Z

Damn this traffic...It's so damn hot in this fuckin' car that my legs are starting to stick to the seat. You know the feeling, like someone slapped a shit load of maple syrup to the back of your legs, and every time you move you feel like you're trapped in fly paper. Ugh...anyway worked sucked...FUCK YOU TRAFFIC!!! Why do you mock me? I hate traffic...why is it that I'm always stuck behind the one and only ass whole who thinks it's his/her job to let every other mother fucker in. If I had a rocket launcher on the front of my car I would blow this cock sucker to kingdom come. I swear foh' God I would. I couldn't eat lunch today cause I left my wallet at home...TRAFFIC SUCKS MOOSE NUTS!! Why is that I am always on the side of the highway that has one lane open, while the other 3 lanes are being paved at rush hour. FUCK YOUR MOTHER CONSTRUCTION CREW!!! Hey I have an idea, how 'bout working when there aren't 5 million cars ont he road...ever think of that? Oh yeah...and you...yeah you...the other cars, on the opposite side of the highway traveling at moch speed...FUCK OFF!!! I hope a squirrel runs out in front of you causing you to swerve thereby losing control of your vehicle, sending you crashing into a telephone pole...hurling you 75 feet from your car. Where you end up smeared along the road right outside your house, where your children are playing and they see this unfold before their very eyes, leaving them scared for life. Anyway, I think I have a hole in my sock. TRAFFIC IS FROM SATAN!!! Why is it that people insist on honking their horns. That just makes shit worse. Where the fuck do you want me to go numb nuts? If I could, I would let you pass me and then ram your shit as hard as I could totally destroying your piece of shit, rusted jalopy. Yeah so my girlfriend called me at work today and broke up with me over the phone. I CAN"T TAKE THIS MOVING 3 INCHES AT A TIME BULLSHIT AND THIS HEAT IS COOKING MY ASS!!! I feel like a fucking brisket it's so damn hot. You know what I mean, the kind of heat you can see rising off the cars around you...the kind of heat that you can smell...that fucking gooey tar smell. If this car in front of me doesn't move I swear on all that is holy I'm gonna drag this fagot from his car and put my fist down his mother fucking throat. Oh well...I don't think I have any milk at the house. TRAFFIC IS HELL ON EARTH!!! Why is it that I get stuck next to the bitch that can't stop her degenerate kids from crying. I don't mean your average crying...You know what I mean, that kind of crying that can wake the dead...You know that fucking high pitched yelling and screaming that goes up your spine and into your head giving an instant head ache. If I could I would walk over to the car, climb in the back seat and just start elbowing this pip squeak right in the throat..."Kinda hard to cry with a crushed larynx, huh kid?" Oh well...what do you know there is a GOD, this is my exit.

I hope you read this in a light hearted manner, it was all in fun. It is strictly a work of fiction because I do have milk in the fridge!!

Summer of 1996

2004-03-26T04:51:19Z

Did you ever hear a song on the radio or in the car that reminds you of a certain time and place. Like how Biggie Smalls, Pig Poppa will always remind me of the summer after I graduated from High School, you know that kind of thing. Well today I was driving in my car and "Lover Lay Down" by Dave Matthews Band came on the radio. Now for those of you who don't know Dave and don't listen to his music, I urge you to make haste!! Get a copy of this song and listen to it over, and over, and over, and over, and over. This song just warms my heart and breathes life into me. I don't connect with anything in the same I do with a Dave tune. There is just something in his music that when I listen to it I say "Yeah, I feel you Dave. I know exactly where you're at." It's an indescribable sensation. But anyway this song just sends goose bumps all over me. I urge you to check it out!!

Lover Lay Down

Spring sweet rhythm dance in my head
Slip into my lover's hands
Kiss me won't you kiss me now
And sleep I would inside your mouth
Don't be us too shy
For knowing it's no big surprise that
I will wait for you
I will wait for no one but you

Oh please lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Walk with me, walk with you
Hold my hand your hands
So much we have dreamed
And you were so much younger
Hard to explain that we are stronger
A million reasons life to deny
Let's toss them away
See you and me we
Lay down look see
She and he
By my lover's side
Together share this smile
Each other's tears to cry
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Oh please oh please
Oh please lover lay down
Oh please lover lay down
And you weep
Lover lay down
Cause it's over
Lover lay down

Say love, say love, say love, say love, say love
Should I love you
Could you love me
Darling it's all the same
'Til we dance away
Chasing me all around
Leading me all around
Leading me all around in circles
Say...

Top 10

2004-03-26T04:34:45Z

Here is my list for top 10 movie quotes of all time:

10. "There's no crying in baseball." (Tom Hanks in A League of Their Own)

9. "If I could have only one food for the rest of my life, that's easy....pez, cherry flavored pez."
(Jerry O'Connell in Stand By Me)

8. "There is no place like home." (Judy Garland in the Wizard of Oz)

7. "You know what the problem with real life is? There is no danger music." (Jim Carrey in The Cable Guy)

6. "You talkin to me?" (Robert DeNiro in Taxi Driver)

5. "Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in." (Al Pacino in The Godfather Part III)

4. "Here's lookin' at you kid." (Humphrey Bogart in Casablanca)

3. "Here's Johnny!" (Jack Nicholson in the Shining)

2. "Say hello to my little friend!" (Al Pacino in Scarface)

1. "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn" (Clark Gable in Gone with the Wind)

About Parents

2004-02-23T13:49:29Z

As I do a little reflecting on my life it amazing to me how much my parents were right. From the "Don't touch, hot! to the "Joe, it hurts now, but the pain fades. You'll find someone else." I mean, it's funny that during my teenage years (early 20's as well) I thought that only I knew what was best for me. But, in actuality my parents seemed to have the inside scoop on what ever situation I may have found myself in.

I just can't help but think how diiferent my life would have been had I listened, if only once, to their sound advice. All through my most difficult times and my most happy times, all they ever tried to do was guide me. And it was during these times that I felt like they didn't understand me, but it was I who didn't understand life and what it was about. All the "You don't know what I'm going through" yells that I would shout, when all they wanted to do was show me how to do it right because, DUH, they did know exactly what I was going through. Because they had already gone through it.

I do wish that I had taken their advice and really did what I was told, because you see, parents are so full knowledge, so full of experience that I look back now and say "Damn I wasted such a valuable resource." I wonder how much pain and sarrow, how much heart ache, I would have been saved had I listened, if only once.

Things like education, I mean, I always knew education was important, just not how important. I would say that after high school or 2yrs of college I would be set, but my parents knew better. Always pushing and proding for me to not settle and to exceed the limited goals that I was setting for myself. Well I didn't listen and took 3 years off after high school. Airgo, here I sit 28 years old, still working on a Masters degree.

Things like love. When I thought that the first girl I had ever loved was IT for me. I mean I thought she was the cats pajamas. When it all ended and the pain was too much bear and seemed unending, it was my mom and dad who were there to nurse my broken heart back together, but it was me who thought that they didn't know what I was going through. They said "You'll be ok, it hurts now, but the pain will fade. There ae plenty of fish in the sea."

Things like credit. "Male sure you keep your credit in good shape Joey." And what I hears was "Blah..blah..blah...yadda...yadda...yaddda. I wish I would have listened because now I'm drowning under a sea of credit bills and late payments and delinquent accounts.

So what is this all about, my parents of course. How much I love them, how much I value their opinion, and how even when times where the darkest, they were in my corner. They always picked me up, dusted me off, and told me how to do it better before sending me back out there. Thanks mom and dad, you guys are everything to me. Without your love and encouragement I would not be the man that stands before you today. I love you more than my heart can bear to express. I'm taking your advice, applying to my life, and doing right...atleast I think I am.

jimmie_thing @ 2004-02-17T12:02:00

2004-02-17T17:09:51Z

Well it's been a while since I have scribbled here. First I want to send a big shout out to that chika in Miami that sent me the ONLY Valentines day card that I received. Mucho mucho Besos!!!!

Ya know I just wanna say somethings here about Mel Gibson's new movie "The Passion of the Christ." I should first say that I am a reformed Christian and a strong supporter of Israel. Ok that being said I think this debate about who killed Christ is misguided. It doesn't matter who killed Christ....Christ was going to die anyway. Ok so maybe it was the Jews that handed Christ over to the Romans, but it was the Romans that crusified Him.

We all have to understand that the "who" part of this doesn't matter. Christ came here to die for all of us. So they could have been Martians that handed Him over to the Romans, he was still going to die for ALL OF US!!! We all share in the blame for Christ suffering and crusifiction.

And another thing, He went to the cross on His own free will. He could have stopped them, but He knew what the Father needed to be done in order for us to gain salvation.

jimmie_thing @ 2004-02-05T11:40:00

2004-02-05T16:46:35Z

I am so excited....I just planned my summer vacation. Well both of them. In May I am going to Orlando with my family....Disney here I come!!! Mickey you better watch out I'm coming to steal Minnie from you!!!! Then in August I am going on a 14 day cruise to the Carribean......GOD is GREAT!!!!! And so is the Federal Gov't....Thank you IRS...I got all my taxes back....$1700.....WOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

jimmie_thing @ 2004-01-27T01:41:00

2004-01-27T07:00:35Z

So here we are tonight, you and me together. The storm outside, the fire is bright. And in your eyes I see what's on my mind. You've got me wild and turned around inside. And then desire, see, is creeping up heavy inside here. And I know you feel the same way I do now. Now let's make this an evening. Lovers for a night, lovers for tonight. Stay here with me, love, tonight just for an evening. When we make our passion pictures, you and me twist up secret creatures. And we'll stay here. Tomorrow go back to being friends.
Go back to being friends. But tonight let's be lovers, we kiss and sweat. We'll turn this better thing to the best. Of all we can offer, Just a rogue kiss, tangled tongues and lips. See me this way, I'm turning and turning for you girl, just tonight. Float away here with me for an evening just wait and see. But tomorrow go back to your man, I'm back to my world and we're back to being friends, wait and see me. Tonight let's do this thing. All we are is wasting hours until the sun comes up it's all ours. On our way here, tomorrow go back to being friends, go back to being friends but tonight let's be lovers, say you will and hear me call, soft-spoken whispering love. A thing or two I have to say here. Tonight let's go all the way then. Love I'll see you, just for this evening. Let's strip down, trip out at this. One evening starts with a kiss. Run away and tomorrow back to being friends. Lovers...love...lovers. Just for tonight, one night...love you and tomorrow say goodbye.

To You (You know who you are): This may seem to be a one night stand that I am asking for but in reality, if you read closely, I am asking for a night of passionate, romantic and meaningful love with someone who knows me better than I know myself. We both know that the feelings are mutual, we both know that it is not simply about sexual gratification. What it is about is sharing an experience with someone, where I don't have to hang on to any inhibitions, where I don't have to think about impressing you (although I want to), where in essence I can just be me, beautiful, wonderful, me and not worry about if you will love me or not because I know you already do. And I already do. And after it all we will still love each other. From me.

Post-Cards

2004-01-27T05:50:45Z

Well today in my African American History class we saw some actual post cards from the reconstruction era. It was, with out a doubt the most disturbing thing I have ever seen. I mean I had that feeling in the pit of my stomach of not really nausea, but uneasiness. The kind of feeling you get when you watch "Traces of Death." What happened to black people (both men and women) during that time period in our nations history is really unfathomable. To think that people actually sent "post cards" depicting the lynching of men and women on the front is just some thing that makes me ashamed to be an American. Because of the degradation of the black race during this nadir of our history changed the way I view slavery and the time that followed it. I mean I have to say that the fronts of these "post cards" were not cartoons or drawings, but the actual photos of black people mutilated, hanging, and burning. My words here do no justice to the horror of what was depicted on the fronts of these "post cards." The "faces of history" tell a more horrifying picture though. In almost ever instance, the whites in the photos were smiling, laughing and standing tall, as if to say "Look what I have done." What was even more striking was that many times children were present, children. We saw an actual "post card" that had part of the victims hair attached to it. There was a picture of a young 8 month pregnant black women hung upside from a tree. Her belly had been slit open and the baby fell to the earth. The womans throat was cut, only after she watched the mob stomp her baby to death. I don't know why I am writing this but I just felt like I had to. I wish I had those photos to post, it was, to say the least, very moving and emotional for me. I will try to get some of those photos up. I don't how to end this entry, I truly am at a loss.

jimmie_thing @ 2004-01-22T11:56:00

2004-01-22T17:10:16Z

Well here I sit in front of my computer screen hoping something worth talking about pops into my cranium. You see for someone who talks a lot, I don't too much. I mean I look at what I've done in my life and I get really disappointed. I mean I'm 28 and still trying to figure my life out. Now I know what you are gonna say "Hey Joe, I know people that are 40 years old and still haven't figured out there life." Well I don't care about some 40yr old person who doesn't have it all figured out yet, I care about me and what I am feeling. All to often people try to de-ligitamize feelings. If I'm feeling what I'm feeling for what ever reason I'm feeling it then it is valid and I don't need someone trying to invalidate what I'm feeling by giving me some bullshit anecdote.

Ya know I sit and wonder what I've done and where I've been with this life and I get disappointed. What have I REALLY done, where have I REALLY been? I mean, I go to class, then to work, then go home, eat dinner, take a shower, then lay in bed and watch TV till I fall asleep. WHAT THE FUCK!!! I'm too young for this lame ass life. I feel like the lyrics in the DMB song "Greystreet"....."She feels like kickin' out all the windows and setting fire to this life. She could change everything about her, using colors bold and bright. But all the colors mix together...to Gray" That's what I feel. Life is missing all the things that make life, life. Color, beauty, music.

Ya know I often wonder what would happen if I was gone. No not dead, just gone. Some where else, some where different. Would people care, who any know. Well of course my family would but I think maybe that's about it. I haven't done anything to make a difference in the life of another. The only things I have done is go to class, then to work, then go home, eat dinner, take a shower, then lay in bed and watch TV till I fall asleep. WHAT THE FUCK!!!

jimmie_thing @ 2004-01-21T20:57:00

2004-01-22T02:04:29Z

Well I'm sitting here watching American Idol and I have to say that some of these people auditioning have a lot of balls because I could never do what they are do. I don't blame those people that can't sing for getting up there, I blame there friends and family. For goodness sake tell your kids they can't sing. there is nothing wrong with telling your kids to never utter another note EVER!!!! People, tell your friends they cannot sing. Tell them that a bull getting castrated sounds better than the noisy ramblings spewing from their face. So I blame you parents and friends....SHAME ON YOU!!!!

jimmie_thing @ 2004-01-17T13:54:00

2004-01-17T06:54:17Z

One last kiss, one only
Then I'll let you go
Hard for you
I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken don't break me
When I hit the ground
Some devil, some angel
Has got me to the bones
You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time
Too drunk and still drinking
It's just the way I feel
It's alright
Is what you told me
Cause what we had was so beautiful
Feel heavy like floating
At the bottom of the sea
You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long and lonely time
Some devil is stuck inside of me
I cannot set it free
I wish, I wish I was dead and you breathing
Just so that you could know, the way I feel
Some angel is stuck inside of me
But I cannot set you free
You said always and forever
Now I believe you baby
You said always and forever
Such a long and lonely time
Stuck inside of me